Im sorry i havent really been on here much. i miss you guys. im in the process of buying a laptop so i can have my own computer instead of usuing the family consistly. nothing really is new in my life. Except i have fallen for a guy that was in my graduating class. we are really close and i really think that he loves me he just doesnt know it. He is the kind of person that has been through alot of shit but still can care about someone and fight for them. we are not perfect but i think that we will be together eventually. he wants to be with me but hes afraid of relationships. I think the real reasson is that he is scared of getting to close and too attached to someone that he gets so close to someone than stops himself. See he lost the one person that he loved the most his father. This guy, trevor, is the kind of person that is scary and tough looking on the outside but is the sweetest most caring person on the inside. hes a teddy bear. i hope everything works out between us.

Other than all that theres not much going on in my life. Im looking for a job but no one is hiring around here. so im just kinda waiting.